‘Our lives are not our own. From womb to tomb, we are bound to others. Past and present. And by each crime and every kindness, we birth our future.’
Sonmi-451: Cloud Atlas
‘One’s responsibility to the world is the responsibility of understanding yourself.’
There are moments in life when one has to go through periods of transition, when one shifts and redirects his actions. Have to say the reason why I write this is because personally, a new adventure unfolds as the period of cocooning and cozy home time are done. A new moment of awakening has come. However, I will take advantage of this and dwell on the idea of change and explore more what does it mean for me this entire idea of transition, change and shifting of consciousness- at a higher level.
Ever since I have discovered and got in touch with myself, I have unravelled an important element that I hold precious and I know I can always count on. That is my inner child, that pure self that is being neglected and surfaced as we grow and become ‘adults’, people with responsibilities, zealous and high-reaching.
Through meditation and long periods of silence, through yoga and conscious living, I have come to experience how crazy and immensely complex my mind was. So discipline was needed. Discipline has to be maintained though, and due to the fact that I have a ‘worldly’ life – as I like to call it- being conscious and present is a bit more challenging but once you get the grip of it – there is no bigger satisfaction.
To put into practice the stillness, the breathing, the compassion, the observation of your mind and body – one needs patience and perseverance. One of the main aspects of that satisfaction is that you begin to understand more the mechanics by which you are reasoning, acting, reacting,the root of all those tensions, patterns and obsessions. Have to say that each moment is a new lesson. Next, the fact that once you have connected with yourself and you have come that far – you will know there is no need to search outside, as everything you need to know is inside; all the answers you are seeking are deeply imbedded into your core. You are your own teacher, your own student.
Here, just in case you still doubt it, have to underline the fact that there is no one that can release you from that misery, that loneliness, anxiety or anger – rather than you. No spiritual leader, no theory, no ritual or object could do that for you. Is like saying someone else should eat as you feel hungry. Laugh as you want to feel happy… So it was understood as self knowledge and self inquiry have been used for millennia as important tools to conquer happiness, be in harmony with ourselves and with the world.
If we look back in history, turns out we’ve had too many spiritual leaders that have taught us, led and tried to show us the Truth. Even now we are surrounded by religions and cults and promises of liberation that it almost seems surreal as we live in a world of conflict, war, separation, racism and greed. Belief helps, faith restores and lightens up someone’s life. However, in the long run, it does not work. The truth cannot be taught. The truth can only be experienced. Krishnamurti once said ‘you cannot find religion if you are blind’ – we cannot see our own tragedy, and as we seek for someone to forgive us, to lead us, to promise us everlasting peace- there is an internal war going on.
We should really understand that we are all one – as each and every one of us experiences, throughout our lives the same misery, deprivation, search for happiness. We are hurt, we suffer and we feel lonely. Once one understands that – really understands that – there will be no more discrimination; only then the change can start. ‘When there is love, there is revolution, as love means transformation from moment to moment.’ A full act of meditation.
How to do that? Start questioning your acts, your way of being, examine, observe life every moment and capture your own ups and downs and what’s their causes. Be a constant observer and bear in mind that only once you have united the observer and the observed, there will be no contradiction and you will reach peace. As long as there is an authority that commands, the conflict will not cease, we will still judge according to the image that the observer has towards the external and the truth will be distorted.
Have patience with yourself, forgive and love yourself. Give space, allow the inner child to speak as it has been silenced for too long. There must be a change in human being so that the society can change. People expect miracles to happen – new elections, new government, new political system – these are all ideas, theories, abstractions, diversions. The history repeats itself. We are the same old people in search for meaning.
Awakening – what a big word! I am in this search as well as you. Even if sometimes I feel great hopelessness and frustration for what happens in this world as I turn to myself I understand that I am part of this process.I have started my inner revolution. We are all part of this battle we call life. Just remember that the only code of conduct you should lead yours is according to your natural way of being. You are the light of your own life.