It all started…
seven years ago. At that time I was working in a very stressful environment – I felt I was suffocated and needed a break. Or so I thought. It was as if I was caught in a box and the air was getting thinner and thinner – and I honestly did not know where to turn to in order to feel better. I was desperate. I was doing my writing, going to the gym, I was walking considerably as part of my job on a day to day basis – yet I had issues with anxiety and stress as never before. That was the alarm bell. I was looking for something that could slow me down and help me tune into my body.
My yoga journey
I turned to yoga because of a friend that told me to try it as it worked out well for her. Seven years later I can say that so it did for me. Now, yoga is part of my daily routine same as showering and drinking my lemon water. I am ok when I don’t do it – but I know it changes such a great deal in my daily mood and body posture when I do. Yoga taught me how important it is to be active, to respect my body by doing an activity that I enjoy and it is not something I am pushing myself to do as a punishment for some dessert I ate the other day or as part of a monthly plan I am paying for (was never a gym fan to say the truth)). Above all, it taught me to listen, to be gentle to myself. To be disciplined yet to allow.
Flow, naturality, harmony….
After I got the taste of it, I wanted more, so I decided that I have to take that long-awaited trip to India. It was here where I completed a 200hrs Yoga Teacher Training course in Rishikesh, at Nada Yoga School, a combination of nada yoga (sacred sound ) and yoga through asanas, pranayama, ayurveda, Kundalini theory and naturality. Each day seemed as three alltogether and it was so compact that the integration process continued way after the completion of the course. I can say that in this period I started to experience that glimpse of the union of the mind body and spirit. I experienced harmony for the first time and oh my – what a big ‘aha’ I had back then. I told myself loud and clear – ‘this is what I want in my life’.
Quick release & instant mood change
Have you ever experienced those strong emotions- of anger, frustration, disappointment – all at once – when you feel your whole head warmed up and would want to smack someone? Maybe that you wouldn’t mind if that someone would be you? Do you experience times when you would be sick for too long or when you just can’t function normally? (Especially during these days Hey) These are ways in which our body communicates, tries to signal that we need to do something, we just need to listen to the wisdom of our body, and get to action.
First step is the hardest
Beside of being a strong anti-depresive, movement is known to make you feel energised, revigorated, more optimistic and more fulfilled about life. I know that during the darkest days of quarantine, I was happy that I was allowing time to my body, that I was taking care of it. This should be part of our daily lives – regardless whether we are in lockdown or not. Whether you run, walk your dog, do indoor Pilates, dance, yoga – do something that gives you that pleasure daily. Do some sort of activity and you will see how that will change your mood and stamina.
‘I am not into sport’ – I usted to tell myself too. Yet, I have to make this clear distinction now – between being active and being into sports. So that does it – take that first step and discover what activity makes you feel good. What drives you and makes you want to wake up in the morning?
The world we live in now
The world we live in today is a complicated one – we are in a -to be long -period of transition. I know one thing – that what this year brought me most is the acceptance that I cannot control some things ( that i thought i did before yet i definitely didn’t ). To let go – that clicheic ‘letting go’ is actually something we are learning about a great deal these days. To reinvent ourselves. To experiment new things and last but not least, to look inside. To reconnect within and without.
I am so grateful to say that I now see my life in two time periods – the one before I discovered yoga – and the one after. I have stopped doubting my decisions, I know I am learning and discovering more and more about my body. My search was done. The struggle came to an end. I have found that which made me accomplished and my body aligned. Yet, I never stopped exploring and those sharp distinctions of ‘what I like and I like not. What is or isnt for me’ vanished as the dark clouds on a summer sky. I focus on just doing something new for a change – something different.
Surprise yourself and this way you give that opportunity to be surprised back. Experience comes first. Judgement later. Be creative and let yourself play.