For some time now I have been trying to ‘cook’ an article in my head however it did not want to come into form. Not that I did not find a topic nor that I could not put my thoughts together – but because it was not yet time. As a really great woman I have met put it – ‘ you need to nurture in order to create’. Creation needs food. So I have decided to let my imagination and my thoughts play a little. Maybe this article is for you, or maybe you have surpassed these moments. Either way, it is a good time to remind you of the well-known words of William Ernest Henley in his poem – ‘Invictus’:
Everything has its time, its season – and as long as you are faithful and you are trusting yourself, it will come. Writing for me is that – a sort of release, like something that grows day by day and eventually, needs to be let out. In a way, it is a sort of duty to myself – it is the ‘creation’ I want to see into being since I like sharing my thoughts. Maybe it could be also that I cannot see myself NOT writing – that keeps me gathering all this nurture I feel sharing. It is, after all, an act of inner freedom – it renders me peace and builds my strength and self-confidence. It makes me the observer- it is indeed, my way of meditation.
Now, I wanted to ask you a question – have you ever thought about your dream? Or maybe I should first ask – do you think dreams come true? How about LIVING your dream? How about maybe seeing yourself as THE creator of your dream-life – and not let yourself be taken from one day to the other as if waiting for something to happen?
I am not talking about miracles here. I am only underlining that it is all a matter of attitude. It is just as easy as that- how about you wake up and decide that it will be THE day for you – that whatever you will have to put up with, however common and monotonous your days are – you will do your best to notice the small things that you never noticed, always took for granted and got used to? How about you smile more often, take more pictures, talk to strangers, caress a cat or simply admire the sun? You know, like when you watch a series and you cannot wait to see the next episode. Can you see your life like that? Can you jump out of bed in the morning and think how lucky you are for the life you are living?
Maybe all these questions may seem too much altogether, however you should start with small steps. Me – I learned that I should first look for what is not working, make sure I understand it and then maybe accept what needs to be changed – and then see where that leads me. (one good example is smoking – which I am working at right now – it has been a long process yet I am progressing heheh). We all have our ins and outs, good days, bad days and THE worst days, however, I learned that complaining or bringing in the negative will not lead me anywhere. I also learned that doubt is normal, and so is everything else that we would so much want out of our lives – such as pain, anger, despair, loneliness or injustice. Still, despite the fact that we are all humans, we should know how to address these aspects of ourselves and feed only the ones that are positive.
One thing I would love to have is a magic wand to deal with doubt – when there is that need for certainty, when that seed of doubt comes into the picture, when there is that voice in my head that does not answer to my questions – and sometimes I have to admit but I have doubts whether I should start another book or just jump in the next train to…somewhere. Well – there is good news about this. I guess that we only learn while doing. So I have decided to make errors. I have decided to be sure of something rather than wonder ‘how it would have been like?’. While you act on your inner drive, when you will make mistakes or maybe you will discover the best thing that could have happened to you – just keep these in mind – ‘ who are you ‘ and ‘ what are you doing here?’
Oh – and I have to tell you something else- you know what is the best practice to get better at this ‘question – answer’ thingy? It is silence and being with your thoughts. Meditation (in any of its forms) with no distraction. Indulging into your thoughts, you will slowly start working on your intuition and short insights will come to you as an answer to matters that have been occupying your mind. It is the sort of mental hygiene that each and every one of us should do. Indeed, if we would do this as often as we tidy our room or our working desk we would most probably lead a much more happy life.
It takes time, of course, it takes time, patience and determination – yet – I have to remind you again – you are your own creator.
You Are The Creator of Your Own Life.
Trust that you will do a good work at it.
Until next time,